day 27

Originally written for writing your grief course done by refuge in grief in October 2022

Day 27

This prompt felt less stressful for me and more beneficial not that I am still not emotional tired as fuck. That comes with territory in terms of grief I also had an suicide loss survivor meetings tonight this months meeting topic was anger as you can imagine brought up a a lot of raw emotions as everyone is at different place in their grief journey’s . I want to say I appreciate each and everyone of you over the last 27 days. I have gained valuable insight by reading your writings as well as your kind words and likes on my writings. I am beyond grateful for your support on this emotional journey of processing my grief. I know this hasn’t been easy as you process yours. Please take care of yourselves ❤️ None of us asked to be on grief journeys it a culture that is sometimes really shitty about grief. As you can see I got really excited about getting to use colorful pens. On a side I considered it a personal triumph to get them out of the packaging given I am one handed. The things were packaged like it was fucking fort knocks or something.

Anyway I digress this exercise  will be helpful in my future writings as it was helpful in identifying topics I can explore further in my writings which are as follows:

•  Signs and suicide loss survivors ~ many suicide survivors have experienced getting signs from their loved ones after their death. I believe it is because suicide comes with a lot of emotional unfinished business and unanswered questions. They also  want us to know their  ok and still for us.
• Afterlife ~ given there is a lot we don’t know about the universe 
• Relationships don’t end after death. ~ The just change
• Dogs’ deeper understanding of grief and loss~ Their amazing ability to give unconditional love

It is strange at different points in my life journey I have been encouraged to write about my experiences as a disabled person. One of those people being a very cool endocrinologist I had as teenager saying I should do a blog . Looking back I deeply appreciate his encouragement. As well as nurse who said I should write a book. As a teenager I didn’t know writing would play roll in my emotional healing after a suicide loss. If someone had told me I would I probably would have said no fucking way. If my sharing my experiences as suicide survivors will help reduce the stigma attached to suicide than I will gladly do it.

Again take care of yourself everyone❤️ I truly appreciate you all.