Originally written for writing your grief course done by Refugeingrief in October 2022
Day 22
Playing catch up today had a session with my therapist yesterday had decided just to reset yesterday which apparently was the right call on my part I pretty much just crashed and slept a lot of the day I had similar sensations and changes in my symptomatology like when I brainspot so I suspect significant trauma processing is occurring not to mention tomorrow is the 7th my dad died march 7th every month on the 7th my neurological system acts up a little and I get a little more anxious as well as overall fatigued. As I write this knockin on heavens door by Bob Dylan is playing on my echo dot. As it popped into my mind this morning
Whatever comes next I hope our I our dogs were there to greet him particularly our beloved pug precious who crossed the rainbow bridge in 2017 she grieved very much when he abruptly left. It was painful for mom and I to watch. I took comfort in knowing when she passed she didn’t have to grieve him anymore at least they were together in some fashion whatever that may be.
At the end there was a door. When I entered I was filled with light as well as a lightness as my soul was freed from the emotional pain and torment I had experienced while living on earth. After entering this door my spirit has the ability to take on different forms and shapes and explore and be part of different parts of the universe. I am now part of the stars in the sky. As well as the sun and the moon. I have also been part of the ocean and the sand on the sand on the beach. I can manifest as any form. Sometimes my spirit visits earth to send my loved ones signs in various ways to let them know I am ok now and I am looking out for them.
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