Day 14

Originally written for writing your grief course done by Refugeingrief in September 2022


Day 14




Dad,
I Have decided to take you on a tour of Folsom lake I say this is one of prettier pictures I found the effect of the drought and climate change have had quite effect on Northern California. California and the whole world has changed in a way that has made mom and i sad. I find it ironic that i taking you on a tour when mom and i are on a tour of our new “hometown” and only leave the house when necessary because my doctors are concerned I could get very sick if i got covid given my cp. Covid is still very dangerous for disabled people. I Wish people would just fucking wear a mask. The main place mom and I go is to UC Davis to get my Baclofen pump as well as my Botox injections. ( Treatments used to manage spasticity in cp patients) when we go to the hospital we see tent cities of homeless people. It makes mom and I really sad.

Obviously I have digressed from Folsom lake but it doesn’t feel right to me not to acknowledge the painful realities of how our hometown and world has changed since you left. Frankly i am getting tired of people denying the reality of difficult or painful situations. If your death has taught me anything it is that not dealing with difficult and painful things honestly can lead to tragic outcomes.

Anyway back to Folsom lake,

The sky is a nice clear blue as is the water.
There is a boat.. it looks a little smaller than yours was.
There are green trees and hills
It looks very calm
Which is where I would absolutely take you

In reality I like to think my dad’s spirit lives somewhere similar to this as he loved to fish. He spent a lot of time on his boat at Folsom lake. Now I envision he is with our two dogs that have crossed the rainbow bridge Baby & Precious, fishing on his boat and feeding the dogs an endless supply of their favorite foods.
Baby’s ~ hotdogs
Precious’s ~ mangos